the calm before the storm

.... well here it is, Sunday. I drank yesterday... surprised??? Jeffrey called at about 8:30. I just broke down and cried about Flag and the Cards training and my week and school... I didn't mean too. So he "made me" go over there and drink beer at 9:am! Im not sure Ive ever had beer at 9:am... oh yes I have, on my 'broken heart diet'. Now Tequila Sunrise's, Bloody Mary's, and Screwdrivers when we go camping- hell ya, but not normally beer, without camping.

So, anyway I got home at about 10:30 or 11. I did help him pack a few boxes and took some stuff to Goodwill for him, so all was not lost. I even did most of the dishes yesterday from the previous week (that Im STILL catching up on from the kids being here!!! And they even did two loads during the week!!!! See, Im not kidding about the mess!!!), I even made dinner- Polish sausage, homemade potato salad and we got Frito's and bean dip from the store- I NEVER eat Frito's and bean dip- YUMM EEE!!! now that's some good stuff right there!! And a watermelon for dessert.

Im going to go clean out my car while its still cool out. First, Im going to put a load of towels in, you know..... I have no idea what has happened to all of our towels!! I used to have so many, like at the beginning of summer even, that I could hang about 6 or 7 in the bathroom, have the cubbard overflowing and still have a load to wash..... now..... Im not sure, but with the amount of towels that I have to do, it doesn't look like I can even put the six or seven in the bathroom! ????? And I have checked the whole house, am I missing something? (besides the towels I mean- I just don't get it- TOTALLY WIERD).

Anyways... put the load I have in, start the dishwasher and go work on my car to get my energy levels flowing. I really REALLY had the urge to paint yesterday, but what I had in my head needed red paint and Im out of red paint. Maybe I can check my acct, just one more time to see if I can scrounge up $5 to buy some red paint. I could go visit my mother while Im out that way too.

My mother.... I haven't seen her in almost -no.. no now it is.... three weeks. That is the longest that Ive gone.

Well, she is smoking less, it's been this long and she is just now complaining about cigarettes, but hasn't offered me any money. That still really hurts my feelings. I mean she was complaining about her account, I call the lady, she is in there with her, she finds out she has money- like $200 maybe, I can't remember and then wants me off the power of attorney- ha!ha!ha!ha! like Im going to steal her lousy $200!! That's EXACTLY how that made me feel. I told the lady (who sounded a bit perplexed- oh and that's the word for my missing towels too- perplexed, I sure hope that's not an indication of my week to come, but a helluva LOT BETTER than pms'ing on caffiene like I felt all of last week. A bit of warfare maybe, with the Bible study and all???), so anyway (again) I just told the lady go ahead and take me off. She said that it required a signature and I said fax it over...... I never got it, but Im sure Im off..... well not 'legally', but... Im off none the less.

Now I call her and say that Im going to the veggie store does she want anything? No she has someone else buying stuff for her. So, really I ask..... what reason do I have to visit her now??

I really need to talk to God about this whole thing. Ive kinda beat around the bush lately, but not really put it out there for some heavy discussion, or put it on a prayer list..... I should do that!! Maybe discuss it with D.O.T.R. and pray about it with them.... really hash it out. I know I have some responsibility- don't I? As is the case with Marilyn.....

I also need to steam the floor today, but..... I miss my kids and Adi was talking about coming home today and Im thinking.... that will be TWO DAYS of them home again before school starts and I can just feel the stress coming on with a messy house...... I might have to tell them I will just get them on Tuesday with the meet the teacher night. HUMPH! I wish they would listen a little better.... something else to put on the prayer list??

I really should go to church this morning... 9 to 12, it's only three hours, and then an hour for a nap.... maybe just go to service, but then I don't get to visit, and if I go to class I feel like a heel for not going to church....

I need church.....

It's almost 8. Im out of deoderant. I won't have time to clean my car. They aren't expecting me, they think Im at the Cards training thing in Flag.

I want more coffee..... stupid coffee pot. I made it and turned it on and forgot to put the pot on the burner and its NOT one of those that you can pull the pot out and pour a cup while its brewing, either that or its broken. I mean its a nice coffee pot for not having that feature!! So, coffee went all over my counter first thing, most of a whole pot. Ooooooh goooody!!

Really gotta go and do something!